She steps back a bit, just to get more personal space. She's obviously a little uncomfortable.
She says hesitantly, "Ok, looks like we're having this conversation. There's .. a couple of things you should know."
She starts to pace, looking a little agitated. "Look, there's a couple of things going on. First... I'm not..." She paces some more. "I've never..." More pacing.
Finally she stops and turns to you. "Look, I'm just not like that. I've never done... never wanted to do that sort of thing." She starts pacing again. "Maybe being on my own for so long broke me, damaged me in some way, I don't know. Probably. I mean how could it not, right? At the age when other people were getting hormones and having fantasies and sneaking smutty holo-novels, I was living hand-to-mouth, hiding for my life, and I'd already killed a dozen people who were trying to kill me."
She stops then, and turns to you. "It's not a gender thing. And I'm not against comfort and touching, sometimes. I mean, I used to snuggle a bull rancor at night, and master Shaak-Ti and I would share a bed when it was cold - just not in that way. It's good and I like it, if I can trust the one I'm cuddling with. I'm just not into... I've just don't have those urges or desires."
She shrugs. "When someone expresses those desires towards me, honestly, it freaks me out a little. I don't know what you're feeling, what you want. I mean, I know mechanically, but I just don't feel whatever it is you feel."
She paces some more. "I know I probably sent mixed signals, and I'm sorry if I did. I've learned to use those desires in others to help me survive. People often treat someone who behaves in an alluring way differently. They let their guard down, and sometimes it gives me an edge. Some bounty hunters are less likely to kill you outright if they think they might have some fun with you first, so flirting is a defence mechanism for me."
Turning back to you, she sighs. "But that's never been something I've sought out or wanted. It's a tool I use sometimes to help me survive, but it's never been something I've ever been interested in."
She pauses a moment, gathering her thoughts. "So you looked at me with that look in your eyes, planted a big kiss on me and turned a big bright spotlight on me in a crowded room. That hit a couple of nerves for me. The sex thing, yeah, which made me uncomfortable. But also, for most of my life, being in the spotlight meant I would have to kill or be killed. The combination of the two really freaked me out. I didn't handle it well, panicked, and ran away. Sorry for that."
She sighs. "But for the other stuff... you've been flirty here and there, and I didn't shut it down for reasons that seemed good at the time. I should have said something sooner, before all this happened tonight. I'm not wired that way. I hope you understand."
